This is such a great post to read for those who are healing and wondering why its taking so long - and I agree about being pulled forward by our kids as adults. Mine say they have learned from my life. And suddenly just that makes my mistakes ok lol if they don't repeat them, then i am glad i made them
"Perhaps healing is not only about protecting the next generation from what harmed us. Perhaps it is also about allowing ourselves to be pulled forward by them." This has been my life, even though I still dream the bad dreams (but not as often as before, after starting to write them down here, surprisingly). Watching my children living their lives free of what I endured makes it all worth it.
I totally understand. I gave my children much more love than I received, but sadly, since I was so damaged, I couldn't protect them from all harm. However, today they understand, and have forgiven me.
In recent times of noticed a convergence between my dreams and my waking life. I say that because I don’t want to imply that dreams don’t contain realities. I’ve been trying to put into words, but I think you’ve done an excellent job on that front. But the deeper message, around healing, tools, stumbling and seeing the nuance really hit home. Life isn’t just some checker board where we shuffle the pieces into the right place, it’s as you say, making conscious decisions, again and again, to find a better place. Great essay, Marie.
It was fascinating to read your interpretation of your dream. And I can so relate to this long healing process and acting from the past at times. Thanks for sharing this essay.
This is such a great post to read for those who are healing and wondering why its taking so long - and I agree about being pulled forward by our kids as adults. Mine say they have learned from my life. And suddenly just that makes my mistakes ok lol if they don't repeat them, then i am glad i made them
"Perhaps healing is not only about protecting the next generation from what harmed us. Perhaps it is also about allowing ourselves to be pulled forward by them." This has been my life, even though I still dream the bad dreams (but not as often as before, after starting to write them down here, surprisingly). Watching my children living their lives free of what I endured makes it all worth it.
Thank you for sharing. 💕🙏
I totally understand. I gave my children much more love than I received, but sadly, since I was so damaged, I couldn't protect them from all harm. However, today they understand, and have forgiven me.
In recent times of noticed a convergence between my dreams and my waking life. I say that because I don’t want to imply that dreams don’t contain realities. I’ve been trying to put into words, but I think you’ve done an excellent job on that front. But the deeper message, around healing, tools, stumbling and seeing the nuance really hit home. Life isn’t just some checker board where we shuffle the pieces into the right place, it’s as you say, making conscious decisions, again and again, to find a better place. Great essay, Marie.
Thanks, Robert!
I seem to be in a period where I remember more of my dreams, and most of them touch on healing. I have another to share soon.
Looking forward to it!
It was fascinating to read your interpretation of your dream. And I can so relate to this long healing process and acting from the past at times. Thanks for sharing this essay.
Healing is not linear, easy or fast. And while we heal, we heal our future generations. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable story.